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  • Keep The Big Rocks

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    My dog has constantly been checking on me by pushing her nose into my hands, always making sure I look her in the eye before she goes back to sleep. She’s worried because I haven’t really spoken to her all day or made an attempt to do obedience. Today is one of those days when I don’t feel the need to do anything.

    It’s OK to be dramatic and let flow the haywire thoughts and emotions that rage inside you. When I was younger, I was teased for trying to express myself, for trying to tell people that I needed support. “Attention whore” is not a label I want to wear proudly on my chest, nor has it ever been. Guess that’s why silence has always been a default, an easy void to fall into.

    Today, I have chosen to write, instead of speak because words are powerful and a healer in my world. I’ve been holding these thoughts to myself for so long. Frankly, I’m really tired of letting them run my life and overwhelm me. Maybe I will feel better after composing this letter, maybe I wont. The last few months have been hell – not gonna lie. This is a rather personal matter, but if I continue to lock it up, it won’t get better, only worse. -breathe-

    Dear Big Rock,
    I really miss you. Not only that, but I really need you in my life right now. You probably have no idea how much I miss you and I guess that’s OK because you’re out there living your life. That’s all I ever wanted… It’s entirely OK. I just… miss you. Being here alone doesn’t make me feel better about where I am in my life and who I’ve lost. We shared so much and I feel like I’m the only one who remembers. Maybe you can prove me wrong by spontaneously texting me telling me how awesome you’re doing? Perhaps that’s selfish of me to ask, but I express myself better in words, not by actions. You know this because you helped me knock down many walls when we were together. Without you there, I feel like I forget who I am, how I feel, and how life is not meant to be lived entirely alone. Being alone is agonizing…
    You’ve made me a better person, one who doesn’t always hide behind words, one who isn’t afraid of receiving a hug and in giving one in return. All dramatics aside, here’s the truth: You don’t need me like I need you. I think I knew that all along. Maybe that’s why I tried to keep to myself when all I wanted was to be held by someone who knew me better than I knew myself. You’re one of those rare people who can truly be there for someone else without even realizing how much you’re actually helping just by being there. I need you here… I am completely lost without you.
    Please – just once, don’t hold back. Fight to maintain communication… Anything would be better than this silence. /End

    I sound rather pathetic – I feel pathetic and alone… I haven’t felt the warmth of someone else’s body caressing my own in a long time. They won’t return… But I will try to stay as hopeful as I can…

    It’s going to be a very long night and an even longer holiday season.


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  • Charity Miles

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    Despite my lack of enthusiasm when it comes to exercise, I continue to look for incentives to push myself off the couch. This week, I looked for apps that will benefit not only myself, but a charity or two. I’ve always been one to look for good causes and what I can do to help. With that in mind, I hit the interwebs.

    The very first hit on Google lead me to Charity Miles, an organization dedicated to making a difference through exercise. Therefore, anyone could do it, including me… No excuses.

    Here’s a short blurb from their website on how it works.

    “It’s as easy as this: get moving. Bikers earn 10¢ a mile and walkers and runners earn 25¢ a mile, up to our initial $1,000,000 sponsorship pool.”

    The app tracks your distance as you exercise using your phone’s GPS. So basically, you have to be outside… Not cool for people who are at the gym during the winter months, but at least I can use the app when walking my dog!

    You can choose to ride your bike, walk, or run. I’m a runner/walker. Though $0.25 doesn’t sound like a lot, it definitely still makes a difference.

    Are there other reasons to love the Charity Miles App? Absolutely!

    First and foremost, It is completely accessible. Usually when a button is selected, VoiceOver just says “button.” Glad this isn’t the case for the Charity Miles app. I can use this app without burning out my eyeballs, which for me, is huge.

    Secondly, the app is available for both Apple and Android users alike. No discrimination here… Well, except for those using a Blackberry, I guess…?

    Thus far, I have raised $0.50 for the ASPCA. No – that amount is not a heaping donation, but it’s something. I moved my butt [my dog’s butt,too], walked 2 miles, and raised money for a good cause. Three cheers for small victories!

    I chose to help the ASPCA, but you can choose from so many other charities such as Feeding America, The Nature Conservatory, Habitat For Humanity, Pencils of Promise, Wounded Warrior Project, Stand Up To Cancer, and more. Just check out the Charity Miles website. Another bonus is that you can choose a different charity every time the app is opened.

    On a sidenote, Charity Miles requires you to share your progress using social media. For some this may be a problem, but since I’m a Facebook/Twitter fiend, it’s no biggie. Perhaps this has encouraged my friends to join – there were several likes on Facebook. The more the merrier.

    Certainly, I’ve left quite a bit out of this post, but I want you to experience this app for yourself. I’m not being sponsored to write this post, I’m just really excited about the difference I can make for myself and to others.

    On a completely unrelated note, I have more blog posts waiting in the oven. You know you’re a blogger when you have 3 or 4 unfinished posts in your drafts folder. So many ideas… So much to share… So little time! I’ll get there, I promise! [I’m not that peppy, just excitable from this app!]


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  • Thank You

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    Even if nobody is listening I yell it to the ceiling and I celebrate the fact that I’m alive and I’m breathing.
    – George Watsky “Show Goes On Mini-Mix”

    I am celebrating the fact that I have people who liked my last post. [Small victories!] Writing has always been very therapeutic for me, but I usually never received feedback from readers. It was refreshing to see that I do have a small audience. Hopefully I’ll see more growth as I continue to post here.

    To those of you who liked my last post, thank you. It’s nice to be acknowledged, even if it was by a stranger. Strangers can eventually become friends. The possibilities are endless.


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  • Project 1/3

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    Brett The Intern, a YouTuber, has embarked on a life changing journey which he calls “Project 1/3.” The goal is to lose 1/3 of his body weight by April of 2014. His starting weight was 330 lbs. Six weeks have flown by and Brett has lost over 20 pounds. I’m subscribed to his channel and watch his videos every week for updates.

    Every time I see YouTubers begin a huge project or life changing event, I yearn to be there with them in person. As I watch these videos, I am motivated and determined to start my own journey the next day. *cue Rocky theme song*

    I remember why I started this blog and let’s just be honest here… I’m failing at my mission to find a healthier lifestyle. However, I must note that many things have changed since post one. Watching Brett’s videos have made me reanalyze why I want to change my lifestyle.

    I think I’m approaching this the wrong way… What do I want the most out of this? Health or the ability to be confident while with others? What is weight loss really about? Am I really doing this because I want the “lifestyle” change or because I’m tired of being fat? Why do I consistently make myself miserable by asking these questions?

    Welcome to confession.

    I hate the fact that this isn’t easy. There is no pill, no magical exercise that will immediately tone my midsection, and no mental Band-Aid for the self hate that accompanies being 70 pounds overweight. I also immensely despise how I feel after hours of negative self-talk on a daily basis. I can go on and on about why this sucks…

    Yesterday, something must have clicked because instead of moping, I took my anger to the streets. My shoes were laced, my dog was at my side, and I had a small goal in mind: run.

    I ran my frustrations into the ground. It wasn’t marathon running, but it was the fact that I did something. I had forgotten how much I love to run.

    So, when my anger gets to me I plan on going for a run to clear my head. I guess my emotions are good for something, right? 😉


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  • Rebooting My Health

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    I seem to have a blog for everything else, so why not start another one?

    Honesty is key when trying to stay healthy and maintain such a lifestyle. For all you readers, you are holding me at bay because I’m going to lay everything out on the table for you.

    In this blog, I plan on discussing everything that I am doing to achieve and maintain good health, mistakes and all. Because this is a learning process for me, I expect to make mistakes, big and/or small.

    First and foremost, let me introduce myself.

    My name is Sarah and my goal for 2013 is to find a healthier me. She’s in there somewhere hiding.

    I’ve been overweight since I was 9 years old. 14 years later, I’m still heavy and rather unhappy about my weight and my impending health risks. Not to mention my self esteem can be found in aisle 59 in the basement level of your local grocery store.

    I’m so tired of having issues with my self esteem, with how people stereotype me because of my size, and the possibility that I can do some serious harm to my body by continuing to live like this.

    Creating this blog will also let me talk a bit about the difficulties and triumphs of being legally blind, health, and weight loss. That’s right, I said “blind.” Upon doing some research, I have found that there aren’t that many resources for people who are blind or visually impaired and health related lifestyle changes, particularly when it comes to food, portion size, and calorie counting. I will share my experiences and hopefully help others along the way.

    So here’s to a successful 2013. Bring it.

     


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